Expression time...

The only time and space for me to express is here...
I doubt that he's reading this thing anymore... Not that I mind...

Anyway...
There's so much thing on my mind right now...
It looks pretty stuffy and complicated...
Actually... It isn't?
Maybe it's just me thinking too much again...

I was enjoying... Watching the movie I bought yesterday...
But after that... Again I feel down and everything... Haiz...

I too want to feel happy... Enjoy the time with him...
I mean why would I want to spend my time emoing?
I... Just want him to take initiative to be by my side without me asking... Without me seeking...
Yet... Things won't just go that way...
So... He is still clueless of what I want and what I need...
Well... A call from him would my day?
Haiz...
I really did feel envy towards his friends...
He can just make them laughs whenever he can...
Me? When it comes to kind of time and day, he just can't...

Why do people keep telling me that I'm asking too much?
Not just him... But my friends as well...
Even my best friend...
Haiz...
I should start taking her advice and stop being like this...
Hopefully... Things can be better...
I again... Need to change...
1st... It is for her... Then... Got broken after that... But thankfully... Found friends in Cyber school to fix me up... :D
And now...

Well... Less than a month I need to face the exam of my life...
Should get this over with... And stay focus...
I really need to remember what the counselor said... To ''blend in'', it is to change myself, not to change oneself...
Just accept the truth yen... >.<
And stop emoing yen... It's seriously not good...